Had we not have been thrown together by the demonic, veracious grip of our eating disorders she wouldn't have aided me in the saving of my health and rescuing of my self.
I remember first meeting Miss Binns at the taster session for our intensive Multi group family therapy course* we had been told to go to by our CAMHS** workers. At this point firmly in the grip if Anorexia I can remember thinking why the hell am I here? These girls are tiny I'm huge... Sitting in tears I saw a minuscule blonde girl walking looking absolutely petrified. I caught her eye and I can remember her just giving me this look which almost said, it's ok I'm scared to. Since first meeting her although I didn't speak to her for very long at that initial meeting we began texting. We texted all day everyday. For the first time someone understood, it was such a relief to be getting such amazing support. I received endless encouraging text frequently reminding me why I was doing this, not to give up and tell me how beautiful I am. At fifteen Miss Binns had been through so much but was still going, she's incredibly brave, clever and not to mention beautiful. He's bloody hilarious and if it wasn't for her I think I'd be in a hospital somewhere frozen in the wrath of my eating disorder. She's fiercely determined to beat this and I'm in debt to her entirely.
My darling, you're beautiful and clever and amazing and I am blessed to know you! You deserve the fantastic life planned out for you and adore you. You can do this! Fuck gretel you need to go out partying! I'm stupendously proud of you for working so hard and studying so hard with your exams! You deserve to do incredibly well.
I love you
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